"I think its because she is a bitch!" + Happy Holidays

So yesterday, right.

I hung out with a lot of people that I haven't seen for a really long time.

I miss the feeling of having friends in my life, although I know really well that they are not what I need at this moment.

I had a really good time, I got to see 3||3, who I didn't think I would.

And she got to see somebody that I thought was going to be adult about the whole thing, but apparently they have a problem in doing so.

You don't tell other people things that they are obviously going to tell me, about me.

I win. ftw.

I love life right now I guess, despite the fact that I am currently unemployed and I am at a loss of money.

I need $

last night ended on a good note, i suppose.

I was just told one thing then it just turned into something else.

maybe if i just got a hey, this is what is up.

want to join?

'oh, ok.'

that is what would have been said.

I was whooping ass on rock band and I 'kneed the shit out of' S*****'s phone and we went on adventure to get it repaired.

It actually seemed TOO easy.

the lady that gave us the replacement thought that it was hilarious.

The holidays are closing in on us.

I'm starting to find that my Dad is really one of my best friends. besides S***** and 3||3

I spend the whole day with him now and we talk about a lot.

Its surprising considering how our relationship was before I left for SB.

I think he respects the fact that I'm trying so hard to keep my shit together.

life is good.

Christmas Cometh.

Dear God,
It's me, MTNastylove. Happy Holidays.

Home is Where I am is?

Goodbye to you SB.

Today, I woke up in Union City, CA.

This is a weird feeling for me

mostly because for the past four months in my life, I've woken up in Santa Barbara, CA.

I can't say that I won't miss Santa Barbara,

but It's damn good to be home.

Life will start here for me once again in a whole new way.

I've left behind a lot of good people in SB that I'd like to make notice of.

For those who've been my friends there,

I thank you.

There was a time where I thought that maybe I'd be alone in SB for a long time, but then friendship shone a light on what could be.

It was good, and thanks for the memories.

So, what now?

Nothing is changed really besides the scenery.

I'm back with my family and those that I love.

The world looks so much bigger from my perspective.

Endless possibilities.

I'll finally have time to finish my book.

btw, 12 yagerbombs: not sucha good idea, EVER!

Dear God,
It's me, MTNastylove.

Fuck you Draco, you bitchass nigga! #too little to bother.

I have problems, everyone has problems, but I don't go hypocritically imposing my opinions onto others.

If this is you, and you do this, this here at which i just referenced and explained; fuck you!

I don't care what you think, but your life sucks and you have no right trying to tell me whats what.

I hold back out of respect for you personally and for a very special someone.

you made me angry, and truth is i'll probably be over it by tomorrow, and this isn't even as significant event to you as it is to me, but just that you are really that stupid not to be considerate of what you're saying:

fuck you for the time being.

Dear God,
It's me, MTNastylove.

Blowin' O's for Oscar.

Tonight, I witnessed the demise of my childhood hero.

He went with the old, only to discover the new.

The first time I remember him losing was ten years ago.

I cried then. I won't now.

Oscar De La Hoya. My childhood hero.

Ten years is a lot of growing.

I can tell that I've done a lot of growing based on my reaction of the whole situation.

You can't win them all, as I know now.

As back then I thought he could, and that I could.

Tonight I know for certain that you can't win them all, but damnit,

you can try.

Good luck to you Oscar De La Hoya.

You can still wipe your ass with hundred dollar bills.

Thanks for the hope.

Dear God,
It's me, MTNastylove.

I hope not, breh 9.

So we're coming to the end of my first semester of college.

How does it feel you ask?

Well, first of all, thanks for asking, btw.

And Secondly, it feels great.

I'm that much closer to a career.

I need one so badly, i have to get out of this hell called schooling.

I almost can't tell the difference between high school and college.

It almost makes college seem somewhat unnecessary.

Why not just give me the high school/college degree in a sweet little bundle package?

It would save everyone a lot of time and money, no?

Another thing. I'm not fit for college. Not everyone is.

This brings me to my next point; why make life harder to achieve at if you only have a high school diploma? I think that it is bullshit.

I guarantee you that I will not be retaining most of this information that I have picked up in college three years from now when i am becoming a teacher.

Enough to teach of course, but you get my point.

Oh well, that's society for you.

Something else that bothers me,

the feeling of forever and not all the way.

trust is a big issue for me and if i don't feel trusted, i feel hurt.

this is probably very confusing for you out of the context of my own mind, but TRUST me, it makes plenty of sense to me.

and as always:

Dear God,
It's me, MTNastylove.